We will run this down tonight-

Hello. Surprise?
Wore a Zara organic tee, Nike pants, socks from Japan(souvenir from an uncle).
Acting insane in the middle of one night, after studying for hours, I think.
I sort of want to stop everything right now. IDK why.

I am aiming lower.Haha, After seeing all those real hardworking students around me. Those who told me that most of the gourvement school students do not study, You guys are/were blind.== Qidong,Jayjay and I was, literally the only 3 CH students in Perpustakaan Kuala Lumpur in the past few days.MG,I know.I went there for days. Because since "people" complained that I made noise at book cafe.No choice. No I am not complaining about being complained by the others because yes,I did made some noise, just wished that they could have something calls guts to come to me and tell me about it instead of saying things behind my back.Anyway,Buibui missed me.Haha!

About the "Aiming lower" thing.Yeah I am quite serious about it. I have enough, I can't carry all these pressures with me everyday. I will eventually break down and forget everything.It is not like I am going to stop studying at all, but just to relax and maybe slow down a little. My daily routine in last week was: wake up, breakfast, study, tuition/lunch, home, shower, online(haha!), study, sleep.
No, I can't take this anymore. What is the point if I am not happy with it? I don't care how important a straight As SPM certificate is anymore. Furthermore, never think that I can score straight As anyway.Lol.
I WILL work on English, Science, Economy, Book-keeping, Maths and Chinese.
I will TRY TO work on malay and sejarah. But I am not going to pull myself onto anything I am not comfortable with.
And that including you

I was kind of glad that we almost had a fight. But too bad it was just an almost.
Hehe.

Oh, And I bet you are not even surprise that I have updated and broke my own promise, again. :P

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare-

Little parts of my body are starting to die. They are tearing off themselves from my body.

Haha, I am sure that my latest look is rather scary, with the super dark circles and eyebags, or let's say it is very haloween! :P I have started to feel the nerves, the tensions that every candidates is wearing, And yet the contracdictions I felt just now-Apparently my tuition teacher is trying to calm us down by saying things like how unreal/unfair SPM or any other examinations is, because everyone will define you by a sheet of paper.That is hitting me hard. Argh.

I mean, what is the point again? I actually used all those so-called rewards to convince myself to study hard, to go for it.Poor thing, I told myself this morning, I am so pathetic that I had have to use hideous things like a dental surgery or a Canon s90 as traps to make myself study harder. Each time when I am falling asleep while flipping those books, I wave a picture of a Coach tote or a Gucci purse in front of myself, just to keep me awakening. Great.

No,I am not being emo lah. Just some sudden thought again. Ah, a good thing to remember: I talked to my idol..Oh well not anymore, now we are goodfriends, like buddies! Anyway we talked for like 1hour and it was good :) He is hilarious yet childish! :P I promised him a sunflower on 20th of Nov(I am giving you hints to guess who he is, in case if you are wondering) and he actually smiled for like, 5 seconds lol.
Such a cute guyman! :)

Last of all, I just want to tell every of my friends who are getting yourselve into this war, that we studied for 5 to 6 years and this is the moment for us to mark down every single thing we have learnt. This is the very last war we are going through(or not, if you are going form6) in our high school life, so let's work it! Haha I am not being nice, just trying to make myself more um..motivated! Haha!
And 5A Xiao! Let's Prove It. ;) I want to see our form teacher's face when she saw us getting flying colors shit :DDD We can do it! Love you all. :)

Last but not least, let's hope that this will be my last post before 21th of November :)

I am proud to say I Love you-

I wasn't ready for this, for This Is It. My body was shaking.But I did control my emotions thus no tears during the movie.(okay, maybe a little at first) It was wonderful. He was so so good, as energytic as everyone else. His voice was perfect, nothing different compare with what I've heard from the CDs. He looked a bit weak, but definitely wasn't even tired. He was very passionate, he gets into everything:the vocal, the music,the cheorograhpy, the lights and so on. Still as humble as he did in the past 49years. Always smiling, speak softly...Watching the whole movie was like watching a concert through screen. I don't rate it, you know how perfect he can be.
You can get to know how friendly and humble MJ was through the movie, as one of the most influencing persons of all, he did not act like a superstar, instead, he took everyone as his family, he cherished them, he talked and laughed with them, he apologized when he made mistakes, he explained softly when someone else made one. I wonder if people who went to his concert would have knew that he worked so hard for very single thing if he didn't die, if the concert went on perfectly like everbody expected.
It breaks my heart to see him dancing at the rehearsal, In his former concerts, his move was crazily perfect, so powerful that you can actually see the lights spotting on him and he was sparkling like a diamond, but you can't expect him to dance as perfect as he was in his climax, after all, he was almost 50 in the rehearsals. It was nearly unbelieveable that he could still dance that well at the age of 49. All the dancers around him were very young and strong, but nobody was shined as he did. He was perfect, he always was.
MJ,I miss you, I miss you so badly that I often dreams about you, that you were alive and tell everybody that it was just a joke you made, that you were the dancing machine on the stage again, that you hold the children's hands and sing "Heal the World" again... I still want you back, I still wish that it was a fake news. But you are gone, you had left us. I hope that you had some great time before you left, I hope that you know everyone misses you like crazy. You will always,always be the king of pop.No one will ever get to replace you, because you are the one.
And I am proud to be your fan, I am proud to be. I love you from the bottom of my heart, and once again, may you rest in peace and see you in like, 50 years later?

I miss you.

Despite the sad feelings I had during the movie, I had a great day with Jens and Penn :) It was absolutely a guilty pleasure day haha, After all it has been decades since I last shopping! I didn't buy any clothes though, just some floral hairclips and a floral vintage ring(Love!) I am getting crazier and crazier for floral ;) So you know what to do @ X'mas and my birthday lah! :P We had lunch at Gardens cafe(Penn and I treated Jens for lunch) and dessert at Haagen-Daaz(Thank you Jens, for the treat!) Oh and Penn bought me stickers from Paul Frank! Love you,sei gay lou :D
All the pictures are with Penn, so I will only upload and do a proper post about it next time, Speaking of which, I have so many delayed posts :X I will update them, one by one haha.
I saw my Canon s90, It's not as expensive as I thought, 1700+ bucks "only"! But Penn recommended s11, which is a semi-pro and it cost 1800++..Hmm, Still thinking!

Underneath the moon, underneath the star ; Here's a little heart, for you-

Γεια σας κόσμο! (hello world) I am learning Greek recently, from Google! Haha wtf! I am just kidding, I can't even figure out what any of those weird symbols stand for. :S Can't imagine how would I survive when I go there and wait for the day I die. If you are not a very close friend of mine, I am pretty sure that you have 1 or 2 question marks above your head. Haha! It is my personal Wilson-plan. My last wish of my life is to die in Greece. I am lazy to tell the whole story now though. :P

I watched The Cloudy With A Chance Of Meat Balls today before going Perijaya for another round of seminar.It was funny and all but I personally like Up better. It is a good movie for you to laugh and temporaily forget the stress of your life and so on, I don't mind seeing ice-creams falling from the sky someday though, It should be fun and cooling!haha so lame! Oh and let me tell you a little secret, I always love cartoon-movies. :P Guess that's they only part of my girly side huh? My favourite director(of cartoon movies of course) is Tim Burton, I mean, he never fails me! From The Nightmare before Chirstmas, to Corpse Bride, Coraline and (coming up next) Alice in The Wonderland, his witchy-twichy, scary yet funny movies always makes me feel sooo wanna be a kid again! You should watch all his movies, seriously. :)

Ah geez, Am I addicted to typing or something?Why am I typing so many nonsence nowadays?Aiyo.

20days left.Time to FUZE UP! I will be updating my blog for less than twice a week. More than 8hours of study per day, strictly no outings(for which,I think I have been doing this quite good!) except for this Sunday.Work it!
Anyway,I am setting a little award/target for myself:
7As= A dental plastic surgery, A Canon s90, A Coach tote, a Gucci purse and 1000bucks for shopping :D
6As= A dental plastic surgery, A Canon s90, A Coach tote and 800 bucks for shopping :)
5As= A dental plastic surgery, A canon s90 and 500 bucks for shopping :]
4As= A dental plastic surgery and 300 bucks for shopping :(


Yeah babe,Let's do it! And ADD OIL MY DEAR FRIENDS AND EVERYONE FROM 5AXIAO! :DD

I am in your room, I just noticed I am-

Gastric is killing me. Damn it. It feels like as if something is biting my stomach. I've tried everything: Drink milk, drink milo, eat something, drink soup..Oh God, they are probably making it worse huh?
Anyway I had a great day with Stopp,Qidong and Jayjay. Finally I get to try on the organic restaurent above JinSi book cafe, the pictures are with Stopp as I didn't bring my camera out, so I will upload them as soon as I get from her. The food was not bad, I felt um..healthy ;) haha! The prices were pretty reasonable, as organic foods are usually pricy. I don't mind going there again when I have extra cash with me :)
Oh and one thing, My parents are planning on buying a new house but there are many arguments like mum wants a penthouse in some fancy condos and dad prefer two-story terraces. Well if you ask me,I prefer town houses! I am not sure if it is how it calls but those houses have same design(they are like terraces too but got difference one la!) and they have swimming pool, guards and so on.I hope you know what I mean lol.
We(my family and I) seriously need a new house, though. I have 3 siblings(4 including me) and my house only have 3rooms. It was comfort when my sister and I were the only children but ever since my youngest sister and brother were born, we had have to share the rooms :( Which is quite a shame because I am 18 already and I don't even have a room of my own :( And I always have so many imaginations of my new room's look. Floral wallpapers, walk-in wardrobe(a must!) white windows, huge mirror... The theme is vintage meets modern :) Haha, I know, I do a lot of imaginations haha! But I just can't wait to have a room of my own. Although it might makes me don't wanna get married even badly. (I will talk about this later)
Ah,I've been typing a lot of craps. :S Actually, what I wanted to share today is...

Canon s90 :D Go and check it out! It has ALL the functions I ask for a better camera(Seriously my s0ny is getting more cacat by days..how sad!) I know I've said a billion times that I want to get a DSLR but seriously, I don't think I will hang it on my neck for a whole day while I am shopping like a mad cow and I have zero experience on capturing pictures with DSLR. So yeah :)
I will save up for you babe :) Please wait for me! And then I will save up for a Coach tote, and then a Gucci purse. PS:Please do not call me a brat for that, I earn my own money,I buy my own thing, Its not like I (want to)buy these to show off or anything, I like them, I respect fashion and they are pretty that's it.

I smile to the sky, And hope that I will be alright-

I have changed my blog template yet again! I think this suits me more, because it is more serious,orthodoxy,neutral(haha) and me. :) The previous one was a bit too girly,right?
Anyway,I have not been in my best recently. In fact, I feel exhausted and extremely tired easily. I doubt if I am taking a wrong way to prepare for my SPM. Everyday I wake up in shock, wonder if I have overslept. I rushes basically everything just to catch more time. "I only have got 27days left!" was the first sentence I tell myself this morning.It is very hard to concentrate at home because I have a big family and my mum turn on the tv and her throat 24hours everyday. JinSi book cafe is a good place to go but I can't go there every single day right. I kept studying in the past 2 weeks like a nerd but I just don't seem to remember more than 60% of what I have studied. I keep thinking about what I still don't understand about Economy while I am flipping Sejarah, I don't have any confidence to score A in 1119 anymore after the seminar yesterday(It is harder than I thought to score A in 1119 FGS,What was I thinking? With my weak grammer and limited knowledge of vocabulary, how am I suppose to write a good essay, I doubt if I can score even a B!). Speaking of seminar, The seminar I have attended really put me in the village of dilemma-ness! Most of the lecturers sounded really confident like they already have the exact paper on their hands but some seniors advised me not to depend on them completely. But I am,for some difficult(at least to me,they are) subjects like Sejarah and Malay, this is bad, I know, but I really don't want to stuff my head to the boring Sejarah textbooks and try really hard to swallow everything down into my stomach!
I really wish to score 7As in SPM no matter what subjects they could be, I want to get the scholarship that Nottingham offer and make my dad proud, but sighs, I guess it only happen in my dreams. :(
I only have 27days left and I don't know what is the right thing to do now. Anxious has engulfed my mind and I am really panic. Who on earth said SPM is easy?! It is a huge deal :S I shouldn't be updating my blog now, this is what I have been telling myself everytime I update my blog since October. Perhaps I should grit my teeth and deal with it, after all, I will be celebrating the times of my life after 14th of December,I will be able to do anything I want, shop everywhere I wish to, buy everything I wanted so badly,watch GGseason3 and 4 and most of all, EARN THE CASH! I am going to buy as much clothes as possible for college next year ;) Probably pay my cousins at Singapore a visit too and... wild shopping with them! Trust me, shopaholic runs in our family blood! after seeing my cousin sister,Wini shop real mad last year at KLCC, geez I am nothing compare to them! I can't wait for all this to be happened.
Ah, imagine all these really makes me feel much better :) It has been weeks since I last stepped in to a proper mall and buy anything :(

Sometime love comes around-

I've finally found a place to study :) Many of my friends have been there and told me how good it was, I didn't really put it in mind but wow..That place is wondermazing!(Wonderful+Amazing)that I have been stucking myself inside there for two days in a row. I want to go there again tomorrow but my mum is kinda mad on me as I have been disappearing for 3days haha!
The place that I am crazy about is actually a simple cafe that only sells some simple drinks and books and some handcrafts. All you have to purchase is minimum one drink and you can sit there,do your thing or even online(they have wireless!) for whole day. :) Isn't that amazing? Besides, their waitress and waiter's service is superb. Friendly+patient=thumbs up! It is absolutely quiet that you can hardly hear anything besides some nice musics they played. I love love love this place. There is also this nice organic restaurent right above the cafe but I haven't have a chance to try on, well I am sure there will be chances as I am so going there again.


I do enjoy every moment there, I am sure you will,too. :)

On the other note,Just like everyone,I've started to getting lazy on update my blog.Perhaps it is because of my daily routine recently:Wake up, snooze a while, finally get up, shower, rush out, study,study,study,lunch,study,study,study,dinner,tv,sleep. There is nothing much to talk about at blog. I don't even have the time to think about anything. Gee.I don't know.

Anyway,I am SO GOING TO Dreams in November, I have been struggling for a while. I will be taking SPM during that time, But this is The performance of the year for Hands Percussion. As a die-hard fan of Hands, I NEVER miss out any of their performances. How could I possibly miss this out? Every Hands drummer is performing omg omg it has been a while since I last saw Jimmy Cross Muji Ahboy swinging like crazy on stage, you will never understand how attractive they are to me, how important Hands is to me that lead me to a completely different world and so on.. No,I am not missing this out, I will be there. And you should be there. :)
I lurve Hands!
For more information, please log on to www.Hands.com.my :) Please support real art.

Signing off, A